Power Play

Perusing the Sugarbutch Chronicles  I came across this post. I thought the first part was pretty hot. I shared it with Blake without much thought.  She absolutely did not like this part:

“fucking me without caring how it was for me. I was thinking about tears streaming down my cheeks, and you not stopping, just … taking me, until you get what you want, and you come.”

            Whoops. I hadn’t really given the passage too much thought.  We just bought new sex toys. New for both of us. Baby dykes’ first flogger, first strap on, first restraints, first we-vibe. I’m a little older than she, so I’ve explored more sexual ideas and fantasies simply because I’ve had more time. It didn’t occur to me that it might not be immediately obvious to her that it’s not actually about “using” anyone, it’s completely consensual, and both parties know that – but sometimes pretending it’s a little not can be super fucking hot. For me, anyway.

            I’m just starting to explore power play with Blake. Before now, it’s only been in fantasy. I suppose showing her that post was a way to test the waters, to see what she thought.  I certainly don’t need to try that out, and that’s not what I was suggesting. I just wanted to explore new ideas with her and discuss. And the truth is, I’m so, extremely, ridiculously happy that she could never have sex with me without thinking about my pleasure.  I don’t need to pretend anything else.